Sunday, March 05, 2006
Does not fear stem from guilt? So that's why I'm always scared.
I'm tired of socialising. I want to be alone.
I want to be the only person in class. The only person in the canteen. The only person in the lecture hall.
I don't wish to fraternize.
I am scared.
I want school to be over.
I am frightened.
It stems from guilt. It stems from disappointments.
So many many failures.
I feel like I've let someone down.
Oh, that's me.
I AM AFRAID LORD!
Take me away. Underwater. With the fishes. I don't wish to fly.
WILL NOT ANYONE HELP ME?
I suppose it's because I expect too much.
Jealous.
Stupid.
Disintegrating.
Shut up.
11:15 PM